Haha I've decided looking at cars is fun, especially when you get to test drive them. Dusty come and picked me up from the school at noon and after lunch with Jessica we went looking at cars. I swear it got better as we went along. We test drove a 2005 Pontiac G6 and she ran smooth, only it's mileage was high. So we went across the highway to Edwards and checked out cars there. Apparently Dusty can't drive a standard so most of them were out of the question. Then we stumbled over a nice little blue 2006 Pontiac G5 Pursuit. Nice car...just too expensive. But luckily it just got better when we stumbled across the 2008 Chevy Cobalt at the Dodge Dealership. It was perfect for Dusty. Sadly the damned financing didn't go through and they never even gave her time to try and cosign, before they financed with some other person. So for now she's stuck with her old screaming "Classic" as she puts it.

I can live in denial or deny I'm in denial...or maybe even admit it can be possible even if I think it's not and it's too good to be true. After the test in Science Cody Muffin turned around and told me what he though about things...He began by telling me that Cory liked me, apparently he could tell by seeing us together at the fair. His reasoning was that it was written all over the way Cory was looking at me, talking to me, flirting, and acting. And that Cory was just to scared to do anything about it. Of course I just turned red and denied it cause I am only a friend to Cory. I guess maybe I should consider Cody could be right because they did used to be close friends until Cody switched schools. Now Cody swears he's going to interrogate poor Cory about it and see if he likes me.

Only Jada could make an outing at Tim Horton's so freaking hilarious~! We order our coffee and stuff for supper and the Phillipino woman served every single person through the drive through before us and we were there first. 20-25 minutes later we got our order and Jada was about to kill someone muttering "If they can't fucking work they can go back to their own fucking country." I guess nothing should come between Jada and her Timmies. Then Cory text me asking how Timmies was and he ended up getting Jada's whole long rant through my phone. He just thought it was entertaining and laughed as well....even stirred shit up. He asked me to ask Jada if her world was coming to an end, and well sure enough have one smart ass comment to another and you get her reply "His worlds coming to an end if he doesn't shut up." I swear I laughed so hard I just about died from how much my side hurt. Then Jada got so into her rant and jokingly upset about Cory's pestering she came up with a new torture, for Cory. Her explanation "I'll kick his little ass....I'll stick him up on his truck lights! All he'll have to do is open his mouth and the light will shine through." It was funny! I told Cory he had to come to Tim Horton's with us next time, he agreed but asked if Jada would attack him. Lol she won't if I have anything to do about it :D As the smart assing between them continued I just got to tease Jada. I then went to run/crawl away from her at her apartment and fell face planting in her pile of dirty laundry (And underwear as Jada exclaimed). Then she glared at me and I went to pull out a drawer on her dresser to block her death glare at me. And go figure I pull out the only fucking broken drawer in the whole dresser and it comes out and hits me in the face. Thank god Cory was only texting and not there to see those embarrassing things.

So I got it done. I'm not quite sure why yet but I pierced my belly button. It looks pretty kool, though not as kool as my hip piercing was. Hopefully I'll get that redone to but not in Rocky, in Red Deer.

I don't quite understand it...it's like I'm breathless and there's a hole in my gut making everything fall apart. The sensation of a loss or emptiness like somethings missing. But what is missing? I'm slowly taking the stairs up to being completely ok again.

Well...Lynn says I should drop it, forget about it cause I'll only be disappointed again. But the thing is I've already been driving myself insane thinking one way then flipping to the other. Sometimes people get me to believe that yea it is possible that maybe Cory does like me, then I flip back and hit reality that there is no way he could like me. I think that the only way he could like me is as a freind, because that's the way guys always like me. Nothing more.

The sore arms, the being tired my whole Sunday shift...it was worth it. Saturday night was absolutely completely and forever amazing. I got teased a bit, but hey no big deal. Like as soon as his dad came into work he joked around saying "You kept my kid out late" and asked if it was worth it, sure as hell was. I told him we'd had so much fun. And I kind of think Cory's dad and Uncle Don think somethings going on between us, ha I wish. Jordan also told me her reasoning for acting how she did with Cory, he said she was acting weirder than me to make me look normal cause she thought Cory meant it when he was calling me insane. No he just always jokes.