Ha! I said I'd hang on and I did. Took that stupid Propane exam today and I passed! Just have to wait for it to get sent away now. Then I will get my weird little ticket thingy~!

Well after a day tired out and sitting at home I hung out with Cory again....shocker I know right. We went to the one playground and Lochearn school to waste some time before the public swim. Well I'm still short enough for it all, Cory's too tall lol. So I guess being short has some advantages. We had a rock fight and stuff in the orange tunnel tube thing, pathetic but fun. Then the poking war went on until the rain hit hard and we made a dash for his truck. Thank god we weren't the idiot's working today, Justin was. We just had to go down there and taunt him but the rain had already passed. But hey the idiot said it'd haled down there, YES! Hope he had to go outside and work in it! Yea, yea sadistic I know but I hate Justin. Then we went to the pool and grabbed Jenna, who still remains mad at me. Well whatever I had fun. Can't believe I avoid the Rocky Pool so much. Ok so maybe I can't but I had fun swimming with Cory. I splashed him and he dunked me under the water a few times. He promised to stop until I said his puppy eyes were kute but so unfair cause they made me cave. I grabbed onto the edge of the pool for dear life but he got me. He went behind me and pulled my hands off the edge gently but I struggled a bit. I got him under too and the war was on! We were dunking each other but I lost...my consolation is that he is stronger and taller. I went to dunk him once and would've had him good but Cory pulled me under with him. The hot tub was oh so tempting too so we went and sat in it, I got Jenna to turn on the jets lol gotta love being older. It got boring fast and we went to jump in the main pool again. Cory and I counted to 3 and jumped, I thought it was freaking cold and he just teased saying he wasn't sensitive to the temperature change. Diving for rings became the game of choice, he'd toss it or swim it to the bottom and I'd dive lol. I tossed it and made him go for it once. He tried to cheat and dive for it before it hit the bottom I held him back. I should mention that I saw Miranda and it didn't much matter, she avoided me. It was funny how her little brother and cousin would come talk to me but I was the plague to her. Whatever I had fun. Cory and I went for coffee after swimming and quarreled over who was to pay. It was funny some random guy gave us this weird look while I was telling Cory he was difficult and it was my job. While sitting and having coffee, I found that my friends aren't the only ones betting on me and Cory dating, his are too. Then there's Lynn who isn't betting, she's sure and she wants us to at least go on one date. We'll see. Tomorrow, ok later today since it's early morning he's dragging me to get my infected belly button ring checked, he's apparently going to hold my hand as well.

Oh my wow good day, yesterday I got to hang out with Cory from around 10 in the morning until 7:30 in the evening. It's all things I never want to forget. I woke up sick that morning of course, hung over from drinking at Jada's and trying to figure out how to get over it. Well I wasn't going to miss a day with Cory for the world so I sucked it up and got out of bed. I got ready just in time, and thought I was pretty sneaky while leaving the house. Until we got around the corner to his truck to find Auntie Sandy and Uncle Shane just getting into the Jeep, apparently I wasn't the only one up. So I had to go say hi and see what was the happ's. I introduced Cory to them and he was ever so polite shaking hands and everything, bet it blew their minds lol. After that little ordeal we headed out, first to see if we could get kool phone covers (No luck there), then almost to the lake. Then Cory had forgot to grab his swim shorts and we headed out to his place lol, he showed me the Red Neck camper, pretty sweet and stuff. A few minutes later we were on the road again to Cow Lake. It was a bit cold out from all the wind so we left out stuff in the truck and decided to walk around. We headed across the beach and into the tree's then back around. Once back on the beach we sat at a picnic table and talked, until I suggested we try walking out into the water just a little bit. I had to roll my Capri's up a bit and we headed in ditching our shoes and socks somewhere on the shore. Cory joked about dunking me and stuff but of course he never did, but just chased me around in the water, sadly childish but oh so kute. We also kept finding rocks and tossing them around in the water to make them splash..ok well Cory skipped them, I just tossed them. He tried showing me how to skip a rock but I'm a lost cause. Then I stumbled across a small sand pale that had been washed ashore and decided building a sand castle would be fun. Cory thought that it was just for kids and shook his head until I convinced him to join in. We found another bucket and set to building out castle. WE set it up in this abandoned moat area someone had built. It went good until Cory tried to add water and the castle collapsed. Then we just wrecked the rest of it for the hell of it. We started to walk back to the truck and of course me being me discovered I had an unknown injury on my finger and was suffering blood loss. Cory asked if I was going to die I said I might drop dead and he told me I couldn't that he would catch me and not let me. I shook my head and sucked on my finger trying to stop the bleeding then Cory asked if I wanted him to kiss it better, I jokingly said 'would you' but then brushed it off. The wind was picking up so we came back into town and drove around trying to decide what to do next. We ended up driving through car dealerships looking at the vehicles. I pointed out a nice sports car and Cory had to back up to look at it again, so I must have good taste in cars. Then we got Slurpee's and drove around some more. Cory spotted nice tires that were "mint" so we stopped and he managed to score them for his truck. He was so happy like a kid on Christmas, it made me smile. He had to show his dad so down to Westend we went. I went in to check if the schedules were done but they weren't. Jeanette asked what I was up and was suspicious when I said I was hanging out with Cory. I had to explain to her we were just friends but all I got was the look and an unbelieving 'mhmm'. After giving up there I went and found Cory trying to find his dad to see if he could put his tires in his truck so we could go back out to the lake. We pulled around back and parked by his dad's truck and he got out to move the tires. Well I wasn't going to sit and do nothing so I got out to help. His dad came out and called Cory over to talk...I can guess the topic but ignored and hopped into Cory's truck. Thank god the sun came out for a bit we got changed into swim wear and slowly waded in. It went great until with my luck I managed to step on a small rock and got it stuck in my foot. I sat up on a picnic table trying to fix the issue, Cory followed and tried to let him try and doctor me. I wasn't going to let him but it was all good and I managed to get it out. Back into the water we went, and he had to convince me to get completely into the water. But hey to me it was cold. Finally I got in and decided to start a mud fight with the wet sand making up the lake floor. So much fun but Cory lost after managing to get a bit of mud on my face and backing down. Yea maybe I suck at reading the signs but I am so sure we came close to kissing multiple times but never did in the end. We continued to mess around and swam a bit deeper out past the ropes and back. The wind started to pick up again and we tried to stick it out a bit more. Laying in the shallow warmer part of the water talking and flirting I'm sure. Then it got to cold and we bailed. I left my shoes off so I wouldn't get them soaked and walked back bare foot towards the truck. We got to the parking area and Cory asked if I wanted him to carry me across so I wouldn't hurt my feet, I said no that I'd be fine and put my shoes on. Back into town we went, picked up our schedules and sped past Jada's a couple times to annoy her as we decided on what to do. He had almost drug me to the piercing place to be my belly button fixed up but it was closed. I thought that was the end of our day but we decided to hang out at my house. After scoring out jumping on the trampoline due to the chilliness of the weather and Uncle Shane sitting outside as a perspective onlooker we headed inside to watch movies. I fought with the DVD player on the floor but it had a disk stuck in it. Then I thought the one above the TV might be hooked up and fought trying to get it to stop loading and open. Cory came up behind me and grabbed my wrists taking them behind my back with one of his hands and pulling me close as he messed with the DVD thinger himself with his free hand. As he did so he whispered to me to have patience and I freed my hands which he grabbed gently once more. I got tired with warring over the DVD players that were proving useless and ran up to my room grabbing my Blue Ray and brought it to the basement. We fought to hook it up but managed. Then came the decision over which move 'Friday The 13th', 'Iron Man', or my personal favorite 'Repo! The Genetic Opera'. Cory grabbed all 3 and hid them behind his back mixing them up and asked me to pick top, middle or bottom, I picked middle. Repo it was lol. We popped it in and got comfy, me in the leather chair and him on the couch. The movie started and Cory joked about it being scary and I asked if he would be ok. He then joked about having nightmares from it and I asked if he wanted me to hold his hand and he said yes. So we were holding hands through the opening part of the movie. We watched the movie but would sneak glances at each other or stop and just flirt. Fe walked up and down the stairs a few times but gave up after Cory watched her lol. After the movie we sat talking and bugging each other. He poked me and I hid under the blanket I had and thought he'd back off or hide but when I took the blanket down and he was right there. Then I poked him back and the war was on. Until I shivered a bit and he tucked the blanket securely around me. Then he moves as if to poke my foot or something and I moved away. He smiled and asked if my feet were ticklish, I claimed no even though I'm very ticklish all over. I asked if he was ticklish and it was a staring contest, as well as another almost kiss moment. Then Cory kept ruffling his hands through my hair and messing it up, I tried to mess his but proclaimed it was too short. He just chuckled and said 'good, but yours is perfect' and commenced messing with my hair. Then we toyed with the idea of doing something else but then decided it best if he head home before his dad start trying to figure out where the hell he'd disappeared too. I said I'd walk him to his truck and we headed out slowly then stood beside his truck talking, reluctant to say goodbye and part ways. The longer we talked we got closer to each other unconsciously. He was trying to convince me to let him drag me in to get my belly button piercing checked and said I could hold his hand so it wouldn't hurt as much. And we were discussing how he still had to get me to watch 'Iron Man'. Then Jenna, Auntie Sandy and Uncle Shane walked around the corner from the alley, ending out moment. Jenna wandered right up to show us her new stuffed lion. We had to say goodbye then cause I was going with Jenna and they'd said Uncle Shane wouldn't wait forever. I hugged Cory, he pulled me close as always and when we pulled away from embracing each other he left his hands lingering on my waist for a bit. We called out to text each other and went our separate ways.

Aww I swear he's such a kutie, and he always managed to make me feel loved and get butterflies. Cory text me asking if I was still up and asked how I was feeling. I told him I was still sick but hopefully I'd survive. He text back "U better. I will make sure u survive". Awwww -Gushes-. Then I asked how and he said he didn't know yet. But just texting him is making me feel better.

Dear Mother Nature;
I'm really liking this Sunshine your giving us! Could we please keep it for the rest or the summer? I mean I love the rain and it's amazingly awesome but like I hate working during thunderstorms. You know how the power goes out...total pain in the ass and customers so don't understand that no we cannot scan stuff through when our til is out. And maybe you don't understand what it's like to take dips in the rain, but believe me it sucks. I felt like a human lightning rod out there with the wooden dip stick. God if lightening struck it would've hit me not the building.
Sincerely;
Rhii

Yea so I've figured out that work can be a bitch when your a female on your freaking monthly. Damnerz! Well at least Cory gave me a hug, and made me feel better.

Yesterday was pretty damned good. Cory came into town and said he could come get me and Jenna or just me if I preferred. He showed up at the door, and Jenna decided not to come. Oh well hanging out with Cory was awesome. We drove around for a bit, and we happened across Solomon and his girlfriend by Bower's. So I just had to say something, I yelled out the window "Solomon remember what I told you, Condoms they help!" Cory looked at me then and we burst out laughing, he couldn't believe I'd say something like that let alone yell it out a window. And apparently Solomon recognized Cory's truck and seconds later I got a text from him saying 'You and Cory, huh? Fun.' We continued driving for a bit and Cory asked what I wanted to do and I said I though he'd had a plan. Then he said he though ice cream sounded good and asked if I agreed. I swear everyone and their freaking dog was there. I told Cory I'd pay since he'd gotten our Timmies the other night. We decided on chocolate milkshakes and sat down to talk. We talked about random things like how I'd almost killed poor Oinkerz my Beta fish while cleaning his tank. And Cory told me some more stuff about him. When we left though we discovered Cory's back driver's side tire was losing air. We headed for 711 but decided to just go to Good Year and get it fixed. He found out it was hooped. Cory was miffed cause it was the spare tire from his Dad's truck that his Dad had given him. He ended up having to buy a new tire, luckily it only cost him $30. While the tire was being fixed up we fooled around outside and stuff and I said how it looked like it'd be fun to climb on all the tires in the tire show room. Then I discovered the sign warning to keep off the tires...Damnerz. After Cory's truck was all good we drove around and he took me to the pet store cause I was going to show him the baby bunnies and their teeny tiny ears. They weren't there sadly, but there were kittens. I picked up the one glaring at me and Cory laughed, cause only I would do that. We also checked out the fish. While we were there some people bought a kitten, then 2 birds. I was like "Oh great buy a cat and bird its a great combination". Cory's smart ass reply was "They need to get food for the cat." Oh god lol. It was almost 3 and he had to work so we headed back to my house. He wondered out loud if he should let air out of his new tire at my place or at work, to make sure all tires had equal air. I said it was his choice and he said at least at my place he'd have company. So we got out and Cory started fixing his tire and we chatted away. When he was done he gave me a hug. He pulled me really close and I just felt so safe and warm. It was a longer hug than usual and he rubber my back gently too. We finally parted ways shouting to each other to text lol. I sat up in my room with butterflies the rest of the afternoon until all hell broke loose at my house and I left. I was uptown with Jada and Lynn and Cory were texting me, wanting me to come down and visit them at West End. I finally caved and me and Jada had bought Silly String. We got down there and Lynn dared Jada to Silly String Cory's truck. I just shook my head not thinking she'd actually do it and walked into the store to see Cory. I said I was completely innocent and then Jada walked in grinning evilly. Cory said oh no and we walked outside to see the damage. Walking up all I saw was Silly String on the tires and I sighed in relief thinking it was that bad. Jada then said "Oh no, check the back". So I had to stand on tip toes to look and the box of the truck was covered in blue and purple Silly String. Cory grabbed Silly String and pointed it at Jada lol, I told him to go ahead. It broke out into a Silly String fight and I got it in Cory's hair and on his shirt. I also got Jada down her shirt and in her mouth, she retaliated and got it all over in my hair. Cory and I helped each other get it off. After we were all clean of the stuff we went back inside and talked. Cory continued to do his clean up and went out back to take the trash out. As a joke I ran back there to lock the door, I got to it just as he reached for the door knob. I returned up front and Lynn went back to unlock it on him. When she let him in we could hear him blaming Lynn, who kept saying it wasn't her. His next guess was that it was Jada who had a very devious grin on her face. She laughed and I shook my head and held up my hand and admitted it was me. He said seriously. I asked Cory for a hug and he teasingly said no before having to go out to get a fuel. No sooner had he left then Lynn turned to me and said that Cory and I were both crushing on each other but wouldn't admit it even though it was obvious to everyone else. I started to deny it and say that I liked him but his feelings weren't returned but he walked back in and stood beside me putting his arm on my shoulder and leaning on me. I told him to stop being mean and he said he wasn't but I was just short and continued to lean on me using me as an arm rest. I really didn't mind, it was kute. Then Grampa pulled up for fuel and I knew I was in trouble for the fight earlier. After he came in I thought I had better leave instead of sticking around and headed out. Before I left I went up to Cory and he said he didn't know if he should give me a hug and listed off what I'd done like, Silly String his truck, Silly String him, lock him out. I said he should hug me cause he loves me. He caved and I got to get a hug I was only going to give him a slight hug quickly and not get to close, but Cory pulled me in closely for a nice tight hug. He hugged me for a while out by Grampa's truck and I felt so safe. When we let go he said he'd text me.

Yet another fun time at Timmies...but with just Cory this time. Earlier he said he'd come to town and give me a hug as soon as he got here and asked where I was. But Dusty came and got me. But then after work Grampa got mad and the fight was on...I was texting Cory and said I was leaving my house for a bit. HE had been at Husky fueling up at the cardlock. After he'd heard about the fighting he'd started driving to my place and text me asking if I wanted him to pick me up. He admitted to me that when I'd agreed he was already halfway to my house and was going to talk/text me into it either way. Seconds after I looked out the hallway window and his truck was out there. We just drove around for a bit and he ended up taking us to the old Tim Horton's. He just parked the truck and we sat out front talking for a bit before heading in. When I went to pull out my wallet he stopped me and told me it was his treat. What a total gentleman. We sat for nearly two hours just talking and this time it really was just us. We got so into talking I didn't notice all the other people in Timmies slowly leave and empty out. We were the last people out. And he hugged me before I left. I can't believe he came and got me.

Well he was apparently asleep and admitted it after I replied to his random text. I had to convince Cory to go to bed. He was going to stay up and text me but I told him to to to sleep, he needed it and it was more important than texting me. Wow...I can't believe he was going to try to after he'd already fallen asleep once. Mom said that means I must be pretty important to him.

If I could I would bottle up each and every single memory and keep it forever. But I can't so writing it all down will have to do, I never ever want to forget. I wish I could replicate everything I feel as well but emotions can only not be described. So tonight after sitting at Jada's and vegging at Jada's with out pizza and movies, I decided to ask Cory if he wanted to come to Timmies. He shocked me and said he'd come. I was so happy. I hugged him as soon as he stepped through the door. It was kind of awkward at first with him and Jada but then it just ran smoothly. And Jada just had to tell him my embarrassing story from grade 4 when my desk tipped into the plant at the back of the class. And stories and jokes flew from there. ANd we even brought up Jada's earlier freak out over Timmies service and her plans of what to do with the workers, Cory and I....LOL. At some points it felt like it was just me and Cory, no one else. He looked straight into my eyes like he could see right through me. We joked about how he was no longer allowed to get hurt and made jabs at work. Me ruling hell came up and Cory asked how it was possible when he was going to rule it. We jokingly fought saying he had seniority but I said ladies first. Then I came up with a plan that we should split hell but I got the bigger half, we play argued over how to split hell but in the end it'll be 5/50 LOL. Then it got late and Timmies was about to close so Jada went to the bathroom. No sooner had she left the table then Cory said we should leave and see if we could freak her out. We got up and he played good Samaritan chastising me about my cup so I threw it away and we tried the front door only to be sent out the back exit door. Cory and I rushed around the side corner towards the drive thru and leaned against the wall laughing quietly. It got funnier when I couldn't climb on the yellow bars to get taller, so Cory sat on them making me feel shorter. Then he crouched down closer to my height. And we toyed with the idea of getting in his truck and pretending to drive away, but we didn't no where or if she'd hear it, and we ran out of time. As we were waiting for Jada to come looking some stoner kids walked and biked by singing 'I Got A Feeling by The Black Eyed Peas' and we started to giggle. At this time Jada had come out to discover me and Cory missing and shouted out loud "You Bitch!" The Philipino woman though Jada was talking to her and was all "Excuse me?". Jada had to embarrassedly explain that she wasn't talking about the woman but rather me and Cory and got told we'd left. Back outside Cory and I had troubles staying quiet and Jada came out looking. We shot off running around to the drive thru and then around the other side. We had to duck trying to be unseen by Jada through the windows. We sat there on the ground just laughing beside each other before turning back and slowly going back around the corners cautiously thinking maybe Jada was waiting around one. She wasn't we got all the way back around to have Cory spot her in the box of his truck. She saw us and climbed out almost falling out. All three of us stood around talking, and joking some more. Cory and I high fived over our pranking Jada even though we kind of failed and she admitted she saw us through the windows when we went around. As we joked I randomly decided I should sign my name in the dust on Cory's truck, Jada ruined it by writing 'sucks' underneath it. I tried again and Cory left it. And Jada decided to joke it'd be funny if he lost his truck keys but of course he showed he had spares. Topics changed and I asked if he really would enter his truck into the Shoot Out next year, he said maybe, so I decided to ask if I could ride with him... Cory then asked if I needed a hug after a joke poked at me and I teased him it wasn't a real hug. I even said I was tearing up and he leaned really close. Close enough we could have kissed, I thought Jada would have smacked our heads together but she didn't. Well then Cory had to go but he gave me another hug, a warm safe feeling one that made me feel so much better. He then drove off crazily as always in his nice noisy truck. I text him thanks shortly after and that I'd had fun, he said it was great. He also said he could hang almost any time. We got texting back and fourth as I walked home and he was worried, so I told him the worst that could happen was I'd trip. He text "Don't trip" to joke back for earlier things about Cory not getting hurt I said "I'll try, no promises :]". Well he didn't seem to mind the joke but replied "hey. ill will u not to trip :-)". I said if he did that I'd will him not to get hurt. We agreed it was fair and to do that. Then he asked how I was and I said good and asked him. He told me "good :-) thanks to u :-)". I said that made me feel better cause I liked when he smiled and asked if he'd keep smiling. The reply was "ok. ill smile just for u". Just stop my heart there....And I told him that would make me smile too and he said ":-) good". When I got home he asked if there was 'no tripping'? I told him that no I was extra careful just for him and Cory asked if he was that special, of course he is and I told him so. Then he asked if I would tell him what I was thinking and I said I would if he told me what he was thinking. So there was a playful argument over who would spill their thoughts first. I gave in after he said "rhianna...u should tell me what ur thinking". So I told him the truth I was thinking that I had fun tonight and I really like his smile. The sweet heart told me ":-) im thinking ur such a great friend". I told him he was too, one of the best. And we went on to say we trusted each other and then after a what's up round he told me he was only laying in bed texting me so I said I felt important...he told me good. I think he's fallen asleep and I hope he sleeps well. But damn that boy makes me forget. He really is my hero and my friend. Hopefully maybe more, Jada even want more for us. She told me that she saw more and that we'd flirted at Timmies and that he looked at me in such a way it had to be more than as a friend.

My head's spinning with all that's going on with me and Cory. Are we really just meant to be friends? Sometimes it seems that way but then other times it seems like there's something more just beneath the surface. Like the texting constantly even through all hours of the night. Like the other night he'd said he was tired after I'd asked him how he was and then I asked why he didn't just go to sleep....he text back "lol. i was thinking about it. but then i text you and forget about sleep. lol." Talk about taking my breathe away and with only a text. So I decided to reply that I thought that I'd be boring and Cory text back "not really. ur caring. and friendly. the kind of person i like texting :-)". Oh my. That was just so sweet! And then the next day I'd been hanging with Jenna who was picking on my lol, like usual and I told Cory that. And he said "lol. oh im sure its just friendly bugging. lol. do u need me to protect you?" Lol I asked if he would and he jokingly evaded until the next night when Jada decided she wanted to kill me and Cory asked if he was gonna die this time and I said no just me. He was happy but I was all gee thanks lol Ima die. And he text me "lol. u will be fine. ill protect u lol". Lol yea it's just words but that boy is definitely my hero even if he doesn't know it he's saved me in a lot of ways. I'm smiling more and things are seeming so much better now. And he always picks me up when I'm down.

CRASH! BOOM! Damnerz I love the thunder, first thunderstorm of the year, summer if definitely here. I forgot how much I missed the sound of the thunder and rain pitter patting down on my roof. And I can just remember all the times from when I was a little kid hiding from the scary sounds, can't believe it now, it's been far to long. It'll be even better after the storm, it'll be all fresh and nice smelling out.

Seriously? Threaten to replace me with some other kid because you scared me with the whole propane aspect. And the fact that my course was missing countless pages. Well guess what? I'm not letting go of my job at the gas station, I refuse. It's opened so many doors. I stayed up all night and I'm done, that whole booklet is finished. So I look forward to my ticket! But honestly how can one little paper with my name on it mean I'm soooo good at filling propane?

I could for sure wake up like that everyday! Yea I went to bed really late last night...or uhm early this morning and waking up at 7:30 isn't a cup of tea, but hey if I could wake up to a text from Cory every day I'd be pretty content. I woke up to a text of him asking if I was still alive...lol after Jada's ranting last night it was a miracle. I said I thought I was. And then he said texting was a good sign cause I couldn't if I was dead. I said it's possible but it'd take skills. Lol then Cory joked around said we wouldn't test that. Then he said we had to keep laughing about the Strawberries and Colin's sign and insulting the Tilt-A-Whirl.

Haha I've decided looking at cars is fun, especially when you get to test drive them. Dusty come and picked me up from the school at noon and after lunch with Jessica we went looking at cars. I swear it got better as we went along. We test drove a 2005 Pontiac G6 and she ran smooth, only it's mileage was high. So we went across the highway to Edwards and checked out cars there. Apparently Dusty can't drive a standard so most of them were out of the question. Then we stumbled over a nice little blue 2006 Pontiac G5 Pursuit. Nice car...just too expensive. But luckily it just got better when we stumbled across the 2008 Chevy Cobalt at the Dodge Dealership. It was perfect for Dusty. Sadly the damned financing didn't go through and they never even gave her time to try and cosign, before they financed with some other person. So for now she's stuck with her old screaming "Classic" as she puts it.

I can live in denial or deny I'm in denial...or maybe even admit it can be possible even if I think it's not and it's too good to be true. After the test in Science Cody Muffin turned around and told me what he though about things...He began by telling me that Cory liked me, apparently he could tell by seeing us together at the fair. His reasoning was that it was written all over the way Cory was looking at me, talking to me, flirting, and acting. And that Cory was just to scared to do anything about it. Of course I just turned red and denied it cause I am only a friend to Cory. I guess maybe I should consider Cody could be right because they did used to be close friends until Cody switched schools. Now Cody swears he's going to interrogate poor Cory about it and see if he likes me.

Only Jada could make an outing at Tim Horton's so freaking hilarious~! We order our coffee and stuff for supper and the Phillipino woman served every single person through the drive through before us and we were there first. 20-25 minutes later we got our order and Jada was about to kill someone muttering "If they can't fucking work they can go back to their own fucking country." I guess nothing should come between Jada and her Timmies. Then Cory text me asking how Timmies was and he ended up getting Jada's whole long rant through my phone. He just thought it was entertaining and laughed as well....even stirred shit up. He asked me to ask Jada if her world was coming to an end, and well sure enough have one smart ass comment to another and you get her reply "His worlds coming to an end if he doesn't shut up." I swear I laughed so hard I just about died from how much my side hurt. Then Jada got so into her rant and jokingly upset about Cory's pestering she came up with a new torture, for Cory. Her explanation "I'll kick his little ass....I'll stick him up on his truck lights! All he'll have to do is open his mouth and the light will shine through." It was funny! I told Cory he had to come to Tim Horton's with us next time, he agreed but asked if Jada would attack him. Lol she won't if I have anything to do about it :D As the smart assing between them continued I just got to tease Jada. I then went to run/crawl away from her at her apartment and fell face planting in her pile of dirty laundry (And underwear as Jada exclaimed). Then she glared at me and I went to pull out a drawer on her dresser to block her death glare at me. And go figure I pull out the only fucking broken drawer in the whole dresser and it comes out and hits me in the face. Thank god Cory was only texting and not there to see those embarrassing things.

So I got it done. I'm not quite sure why yet but I pierced my belly button. It looks pretty kool, though not as kool as my hip piercing was. Hopefully I'll get that redone to but not in Rocky, in Red Deer.

I don't quite understand it...it's like I'm breathless and there's a hole in my gut making everything fall apart. The sensation of a loss or emptiness like somethings missing. But what is missing? I'm slowly taking the stairs up to being completely ok again.

Well...Lynn says I should drop it, forget about it cause I'll only be disappointed again. But the thing is I've already been driving myself insane thinking one way then flipping to the other. Sometimes people get me to believe that yea it is possible that maybe Cory does like me, then I flip back and hit reality that there is no way he could like me. I think that the only way he could like me is as a freind, because that's the way guys always like me. Nothing more.

The sore arms, the being tired my whole Sunday shift...it was worth it. Saturday night was absolutely completely and forever amazing. I got teased a bit, but hey no big deal. Like as soon as his dad came into work he joked around saying "You kept my kid out late" and asked if it was worth it, sure as hell was. I told him we'd had so much fun. And I kind of think Cory's dad and Uncle Don think somethings going on between us, ha I wish. Jordan also told me her reasoning for acting how she did with Cory, he said she was acting weirder than me to make me look normal cause she thought Cory meant it when he was calling me insane. No he just always jokes.

Wow...I guess I've never really been hit so hard with feelings. I've thought I've loved, I've thought I've crushed...and yea I've liked Cory for a while but yea. I get so nervous thinking about talking to him about that one topic that my stomach knots up and I get major butterflies. Last night I thought I'd be sick I was so nervous. But thinking about Saturday calms me. Like when I got him on the Merry Go Round lol, that was so funny. He said he couldn't believe it, and I still can't. Or the time when after the kids kept grabbing my butt and putting their hands in my back pockets and he told me to tell him if it happened again and he'd tell them to "Watch their hands". Gawd I want so much just to go back and relive it all.

Do not seek to be sought.....

I wish tonight never had to end, and I can't believe last night I was nervous. I had the greatest time with Cory. I lost count how many people thought we were dating, including friends, relatives, ex's and carny's. We have inside jokes too like the Squeaky Strawberry and Colin. I don't think I've ever seen Cory smile so much, I loved it and I'd give anything to see that smile as much as possible. It started when we got to the fair both a bit nervous..but then we got better after leaving to grab something to eat. We ate out pizza in his truck parked in the West End laut. Colin came to bug us but gave up to go finish his pathetic attempts at weed wacking....including his dumb sign LOL. Then Uncle Don the boss man showed up and Cory jumped out to through the box out and talk to him. Uncle Don didn't notice me sitting in the truck for a bit until I said hi...and he was all shocked and joked saying "Are you associating with him?" A bit of silence followed from both me and Cory until I finally answered "He's my friend". Then uncle Don said "We need to talk about who you like". Then we set back off to the fair grounds and ran into everyone I know...like Jordan who so bluntly asked Cory if we were on a date. Then Victoria saw us and text Cory asking if we were friends or together, he told me he thought she was just jealous. Lol....we went on the Strawberries...and I'm sure the ride dude thought we were going on it to make out but we got on and spun it until it started squeaking and we killed ourselves laughing, and the dude gave us funny looks when he came to let us off. Cory broke that by saying "It squeaks!" The look on his face was absolutely priceless. So apparently drinks were to expensive so we drove back to West End to get some water and energy drinks. Uncle Don bugged us cause we argued over who was paying, I won~! Finally on our third return we made it into the parking laut instead of the field. We continued running into people and getting asked the same question. He told me that it was the best time he'd ever had at a fair. And when I almost decided to go on the Ferris wheel he said "I promise I won't let you fall out". He even pinky swore. Instead we watched the fire works...and snuck glances at each other and talked a bit. I learned so much about him, like he grew up with horses, and memories of things like his dad taking him on rides and giving him a fire cracker he accidentally threw under a van. Apparently we'll hang again, I can't wait. And even if I'm tired at work tomorrow it was worth it...Tonight was a good night and the Black Eyed Pea's- I Got A Feeling is the theme song now. I never want to forget this...I would ask the night never end or replay it over and over a thousand times if I could.

Is it always about other countries with our government? I mean yea I love being part of a nation willing and able to help others and be known as a world peace keeper. But come in if we look around we are having problems in our own country too. We have people without shelter, food and necesities needed for life. If we don't watch out we'll end up like those countries that have fallen. I appreciate the effort to help those in need but think about it....in the end it's reallt their own fault their like that. Like Africa their people are starving and dying of multiple diseases like HIV and AIDS, as well as going without an education. It all could have been preventable but no one cared to stop it. Maybe it won't happen for a while or as severe but it can and will if we don't start looking out for our own country.