I now think I know what drowning feels like, and I didn't even need to be submerged in the dark depths of the ocean, or any water for that matter. I just had to be submerged in the pressure, the pressure of problems. And the person who pushed me the furthest under was the one I thought would take the time to throw me a life line and pull my into the safety of the shore. I feel as if I can never get it all off my chest, I with I could just push it all away, so that I could actually breath again.