Wow...I guess I've never really been hit so hard with feelings. I've thought I've loved, I've thought I've crushed...and yea I've liked Cory for a while but yea. I get so nervous thinking about talking to him about that one topic that my stomach knots up and I get major butterflies. Last night I thought I'd be sick I was so nervous. But thinking about Saturday calms me. Like when I got him on the Merry Go Round lol, that was so funny. He said he couldn't believe it, and I still can't. Or the time when after the kids kept grabbing my butt and putting their hands in my back pockets and he told me to tell him if it happened again and he'd tell them to "Watch their hands". Gawd I want so much just to go back and relive it all.

Do not seek to be sought.....

I wish tonight never had to end, and I can't believe last night I was nervous. I had the greatest time with Cory. I lost count how many people thought we were dating, including friends, relatives, ex's and carny's. We have inside jokes too like the Squeaky Strawberry and Colin. I don't think I've ever seen Cory smile so much, I loved it and I'd give anything to see that smile as much as possible. It started when we got to the fair both a bit nervous..but then we got better after leaving to grab something to eat. We ate out pizza in his truck parked in the West End laut. Colin came to bug us but gave up to go finish his pathetic attempts at weed wacking....including his dumb sign LOL. Then Uncle Don the boss man showed up and Cory jumped out to through the box out and talk to him. Uncle Don didn't notice me sitting in the truck for a bit until I said hi...and he was all shocked and joked saying "Are you associating with him?" A bit of silence followed from both me and Cory until I finally answered "He's my friend". Then uncle Don said "We need to talk about who you like". Then we set back off to the fair grounds and ran into everyone I know...like Jordan who so bluntly asked Cory if we were on a date. Then Victoria saw us and text Cory asking if we were friends or together, he told me he thought she was just jealous. Lol....we went on the Strawberries...and I'm sure the ride dude thought we were going on it to make out but we got on and spun it until it started squeaking and we killed ourselves laughing, and the dude gave us funny looks when he came to let us off. Cory broke that by saying "It squeaks!" The look on his face was absolutely priceless. So apparently drinks were to expensive so we drove back to West End to get some water and energy drinks. Uncle Don bugged us cause we argued over who was paying, I won~! Finally on our third return we made it into the parking laut instead of the field. We continued running into people and getting asked the same question. He told me that it was the best time he'd ever had at a fair. And when I almost decided to go on the Ferris wheel he said "I promise I won't let you fall out". He even pinky swore. Instead we watched the fire works...and snuck glances at each other and talked a bit. I learned so much about him, like he grew up with horses, and memories of things like his dad taking him on rides and giving him a fire cracker he accidentally threw under a van. Apparently we'll hang again, I can't wait. And even if I'm tired at work tomorrow it was worth it...Tonight was a good night and the Black Eyed Pea's- I Got A Feeling is the theme song now. I never want to forget this...I would ask the night never end or replay it over and over a thousand times if I could.

Is it always about other countries with our government? I mean yea I love being part of a nation willing and able to help others and be known as a world peace keeper. But come in if we look around we are having problems in our own country too. We have people without shelter, food and necesities needed for life. If we don't watch out we'll end up like those countries that have fallen. I appreciate the effort to help those in need but think about it....in the end it's reallt their own fault their like that. Like Africa their people are starving and dying of multiple diseases like HIV and AIDS, as well as going without an education. It all could have been preventable but no one cared to stop it. Maybe it won't happen for a while or as severe but it can and will if we don't start looking out for our own country.

And how can these feelings be denied....
When I can't even get you off my mind.

And how can these feelings be denied....
When I can't even get you off my mind.

Hushed words whispered with rough lips.
A heated touch with cold fingertips.