Sometimes I wish I could speak out and say things I want to, things I should. Especially right now, but I can't because the people I need to tell these things to won't listen, probably don't even care. I want to go back and never have made the mistakes I did, then maybe it'd be different and I'd never have to say these things at all. I want to tell Miranda that I miss everything and that I'm scared I really did lose the best friendship I ever had. She wouldn't listen and she wouldn't see. She was always the person I trusted with everything and she was always there. Sure she will say now that she's still my best friend, but I question it? It's like there's some HUGE invisible wall between us and that I'll never be able to get by it so that we can just go back to being best friends. To having fun, understanding things no one else could, and having trust. I miss her.