My head's spinning with all that's going on with me and Cory. Are we really just meant to be friends? Sometimes it seems that way but then other times it seems like there's something more just beneath the surface. Like the texting constantly even through all hours of the night. Like the other night he'd said he was tired after I'd asked him how he was and then I asked why he didn't just go to sleep....he text back "lol. i was thinking about it. but then i text you and forget about sleep. lol." Talk about taking my breathe away and with only a text. So I decided to reply that I thought that I'd be boring and Cory text back "not really. ur caring. and friendly. the kind of person i like texting :-)". Oh my. That was just so sweet! And then the next day I'd been hanging with Jenna who was picking on my lol, like usual and I told Cory that. And he said "lol. oh im sure its just friendly bugging. lol. do u need me to protect you?" Lol I asked if he would and he jokingly evaded until the next night when Jada decided she wanted to kill me and Cory asked if he was gonna die this time and I said no just me. He was happy but I was all gee thanks lol Ima die. And he text me "lol. u will be fine. ill protect u lol". Lol yea it's just words but that boy is definitely my hero even if he doesn't know it he's saved me in a lot of ways. I'm smiling more and things are seeming so much better now. And he always picks me up when I'm down.