I just want to scream or shout or cry or something because I'm hurt, sad and mad and I'm even madder at myself for feeling this way! I'm mad at you too, you are part of the reason I feel this way and yet I don't want to feel it because I miss you. Yea, after all that I still miss you. After like a month of next to no contact it took a friend taking a trip to the hospital to get one freaking response from you. Gee thank you so, so much.