It doesn't matter what I do, say or try. I give me all just so you watch me fall. I put up patience and pretended to be all happy when I was dying inside. Sure it seemed to work but I just ruined whatever progress was being made. You tell me most of the time I over think everything then get pissed off. Now today when I'm tired of thinking and just want to to explain things a little more you tell me I'm not thinking and get pissed off What do you want me to do then because everything I have done just doesn't seem to be it? You told me it was looking up but obviously not now, I'm a failure and I failed you and I failed me once again.